Whoa how time flies. It’s been forever since I’ve typed out an actual blog post. So much has been going on. I listed in a previous post how busy things were. We’ve made it past the grand baby’s birthday and Thanksgiving. We even survived the cold weather at our successful neighborhood event. My weekly bible study is going smoothly and Freedom is being found in Jesus’ name!
God has moved mountains regarding helping me prepare for the Women’s Retreat coming up next year. I have been able to get my LLC updated to be currently active instead of waiting until the first of the year. I’ve started a weekly encouraging email list and my job ended which demands that I pray fervently for His provision but also allows me more time to do what I need to do. Since I’ve been laid off from work, He has provided so many other opportunities this past week, to get things done. I now have a brand new website, plus an official Entrusted with the Truth banking account, a resale certificate and a business tax certificate. It was quite fun explaining to those that asked “what kind of business is this and what are you selling?” my response being a big smile and a shrug – ‘I’m not sure what God is up to yet but so far, Encouragement for all and Women’s retreat tickets is about the best response I can give’ it was baffling to some which was comical but to me it is exciting stuff and I look forward to continuing along this journey.
I don’t share any of this with you in hopes that you think, ‘wow, look at all she is doing’ I share it in hopes that if you’ve been traveling this path with me for any length of time, you will recognize that this is all of God’s doing. That it is ONLY by His grace and wisdom that any of this is happening.
Our church is getting ready to begin the fast that we do every year and I sat in awe the other day when it was announced as I was reminded again that this past year started with the fast for me. It was during that time frame that I became even more serious about my relationship with Christ. I actually found a few emails the other day between me and a friend while cleaning out my mailbox at work. It was just after the fast had ended and I felt God telling me to start writing down the needs we had. I’ll post it below so that maybe you can understand just a bit about how stunned I am on how this year has turned out.
**email dated January 25, 2017**
On my way out of the gym this morning (yay body pump!) I had two missed calls from my Pastor’s wife from church. My first thought was, uh oh, what did I do lol, it was like being called into the principal’s office hehe. But I listened to her voicemail and then called her back.
she wants me to speak at our annual women’s conference in March!?!
Like, get up in front of people and talk about my story and my love for Jesus. Like, IN FRONT OF A LARGE GROUP OF PEOPLE… <insert big gulp here>
She said she had been asking God for someone to do one of the sessions and when I showed up the other night at a prayer meeting (which I went to on a whim) she felt He was saying to ask me. She even said that she prayed about it and then took it to Pastor Jason (whom I absolutely love that man) and she didn’t tell him who she was thinking about, she said she told him she was trying to find someone and wondered if he could think of anyone and she said even he said “what about Susan” which she took as confirmation from God.
Completely awed and blown away by what God is doing here…
I told her that as most responses from people in the bible… I want to say “I’m scared” “why me? I’m not qualified” “I’m not good enough” but on the other hand, I can’t help but feel that God wants to do something big in all of this. I remember two years ago, I went to a leadership conference at the church and sat and cried my eyes out because I felt God was calling me to do something more and felt He spoke to me that day and said one day you will be up on this stage. And now this opportunity comes along.
**2 email dated January 26, 2017**
Something I didn’t share yesterday is that just yesterday morning before I went to the gym, I was in my quiet time, being purposeful and writing down the different needs in my life. (one of them being a 4 bedroom house so we can have more space with the baby and help Chris’s mom out) because I had found myself the day before looking at houses for rent online and seeing the beautiful homes with gorgeous kitchens, (something I’ve always wanted) and feeling not good enough and not worthy of having such a nice place- so I committed to writing down all the things I wanted to see change in my life and was telling myself that I just needed to believe in what God wanted to do….. only then to get the phone call asking me about a conference called “She Who Believes”…. So I sent my pastor’s wife an email this morning confirming that I would do it (we were going to confirm on Saturday when we met up and I heard more detail) but I told her what I shared with you about a few years ago and told her the above story and said I felt that God was already giving me confirmation before I even knew what was going to be asked of me and I didn’t need to know details, just that He was going to do this and not me- simply amazing when I put it into words like this!
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To read those words, to remember how I was feeling that day and to recall with absolute clarity that I had no other choice than to believe God had big plans for me, it completely floors me as I sit here in my 4 bedroom home, typing on a website that is God given to bring the gift He gave me into the world, while in the background planning my own women’s retreat next year to benefit my church and community while giving Glory to The One who made it all possible.
And the crazy thing is, He’s NOT DONE!
I pray that if you read through this long post, that you are encouraged. I am sure that you have experienced His goodness in many ways, maybe even something like the above. Just continue to remember, God has so much He wants to do for you and through you. Continue to get into His Word, trust what He says and take action on whatever next step He is calling you to take. That is what I am striving to do every single day and I have never felt so sure of God’s presence and purpose in my life.