It has been a while since I have been able to find time to blog. Things have become even more hectic than they were before. I will sing God’s praises for the busyness!
I started a full time job the Monday following the retreat. I continually ask God to show me how to manage my time as working has taken away the many hours I had before to spend time with Him and work on my ministry. He is faithful and I manage to still get a lot done though I find myself wanting to do more.
The good news is, we are planning our next event. I love how God has brought along others to help me! We’ve gone from two speakers to four. I find it so exciting to see how God is not only using this journey to transform me, but that other’s are finding similar opportunities and I get to be a part of that.
To be honest, so much is going on right now, that it’s hard to figure out exactly which part I want to blog about.
I’m working on my weekly encouragement emails, currently doing a series on Intentionality. I find it very powerful and I hope those following along do as well. I’m doing a bible study on the Fruits of the Spirit as I prepare for the event and God continues to show me just how much He loves all of us and how He is calling us to bear His fruit. I”m also studying scriptures on the bible on being healthy.
For anyone that knows my story knows that I struggle with my weight. God has given me victory over many areas but things continue to pop up and it was brought to light again after the retreat. I was sore for two days afterwards! I came to recognize that if I was going to go all in with hosting four events a year then I needed to prepare myself physically for the challenge. I have come to realize that if I don’t take better care of myself then I will not be postured to do the work God has called me to do. It has been a tremendous eye opener.
Easter was extremely powerful at my church. (It always is) I was unable to attend the Good Friday service in person but I was able to watch it online. As always, that weekend moves my heart to a humble stance as I focus fully on what Jesus took for my (our) sake.
In the middle of that God really opened my eyes to my health situation. As I sang Reckless Love, singing the words “There’s no shadow you won’t light up, mountain you won’t climb up, coming after me… There’s no wall you won’t kick down, Lie you won’t tear down, coming after me” always brings to mind the way God has purposefully come after me. I look back at my past and I can see the many times He has kicked down walls to get me when I’ve asked Him to. So there I am on Friday, singing those words again, my heart bowed to Him, asking Him to come after me on this weight situation. Pouring my heart out to Him, sharing with Him that I want to be all that He has called me to be and I don’t want to put anything in His way and I need Him to tear it down. And it hit me that as much as I meant everything I said to Him, after the service was over, I went back to work and had cupcakes.
On Sunday I was flooded with the truth that if I kept asking God to come after me, yet didn’t change my actions, then He would most definitely come after me and it might not be a pleasant experience. Back in 2007 something like this happened and I was in the hospital for two weeks. Being there changed my life as God finally got my attention and no, I do not believe God put me in the hospital, I take full responsibility that it was my choices and actions that landed me there due to my health deteriorating but I knew that God used that circumstance to reach me and I have no doubt He would do the same again if that’s what it took to get me to where He wanted me to be.
How could He not. He loves me so much and here His child is begging Him to not let her stay this way. What loving Father would just sit back and not do anything?
So that is what I’ve been working on this week. Better eating choices and trying to move as much as possible. Taking it one day at a time and trusting that as I move forward in truth, He will lead me into the light.
I would say that’s a pretty good recap of my week. Other than the grand baby being so cute I can barely stand it and finding out yesterday at my job that part of the group that was hired, me included, are getting a promotion and we’ve only been there 4 weeks. Gotta love the mortgage industry, always changing!
For those of you that took the time to read my ramblings, I pray that you find encouragement in the fact that God is with us through all things. He is our strength and the only way we can get through our day with peace.
As I get ready to move into the busyness of the day, know that I will be praying that God shows up in a new and intimate way in your life today and that you will continue to grow closer to Him in all areas of your life.
Much love, Susan