Long time!

Wow, it has been forever since I’ve had time to post here.  So much has been going on!

We’ve officially held our second event. What a wild and crazy ride this has been.  This go around was so very different than the first one. So much of the fear had disappeared yet there were new, interesting challenges to get through. God showed up though!

Leading up to the event, all of our speakers, including myself, had spiritual warfare going on. One had her mom go into the hospital, another started having pains in her hip, another dealing with life and myself, I started losing my voice the Thursday before.

But Wow did God show up and show off.  The prayers that were going on were amazing. We received word in the middle of the event that the mom was being sent home from the hospital as she was much better, the pain disappeared from my friends hip and my voice held out as best as possible throughout the day. By the end of the event, I was to get up and close with another 20 minutes of talking but I realized that was just not going to happen so I tossed my notes aside and spoke from my heart for a few minutes and let God do His thing. Once we cleared everything up and headed home, my voice disappeared completely! I didn’t get it back until four day’s later. God is SO amazing!!

It was a beautiful day filled with testimony and the Holy Spirit. Throughout the day we had women planting a seedling that they could take home to remind them of which fruit of the Spirit they wanted God to grow in their life. I have loved getting pictures of the plants as they grow. God is so cool like that!

Our next event is coming up October 6, 2018. From Gray to Living Color – A Journey of Excellence with God. I am very excited about what God is going to continue to do. He has shown me through my own journey that our lives aren’t to be lived out in dull gray, but in bright, beautiful, bold color that only comes from having the light of Jesus shine through us.  We hope you will join us as we continue to get together and fellowship and talk about the greatness of our God!

Life, including the family, health and work has been extremely busy so please bear with me as the posts will be few and far between. If I could be so bold to continue to ask for your prayers as I strive to keep taking each step that I am shown. And of course let me know if I can be praying for you as well.

Until next time, many blessings,

Susan

Checking in

I wish I could tell you that I had something major to share in my first blog post in many weeks but that is not the case.  Life has kept me running but through it all I am comforted by the fact that God is in control.

I am posting because I don’t want you to think I’ve fallen off the face of the earth 😀 With the family, the grand baby, the health goals, the new job and the event planning there are many days I feel like I don’t which way I am going but happy to report that God is still working, providing and blessing more than I ever deserved.

So many of us go through these times where we have so many responsibilities that have to be taken care of and it can become overwhelming. I just want to encourage you today that as you continue to put God first in your day, give Him the first fruits of your time and you will find that somehow, some way, everything else manages to get done.  At least this is my experience as I am clinging to my time with Him with all of my heart because I can’t do the rest of life without Him first thing!

Please keep me and all of our other speakers in your prayers as we draw closer to our next event. I know God has great plans for July 21, 2018. We hope to see you there and if there is anything specific I can pray for you about, please don’t hesitate to let me know.

 

Until next time! Many blessings!

Morning Ramblings

It has been a while since I have been able to find time to blog.  Things have become even more hectic than they were before. I will sing God’s praises for the busyness!

I started a full time job the Monday following the retreat. I continually ask God to show me how to manage my time as working has taken away the many hours I had before to spend time with Him and work on my ministry.  He is faithful and I manage to still get a lot done though I find myself wanting to do more.

The good news is, we are planning our next event.  I love how God has brought along others to help me! We’ve gone from two speakers to four. I find it so exciting to see how God is not only using this journey to transform me, but that other’s are finding similar opportunities and I get to be a part of that.

To be honest, so much is going on right now, that it’s hard to figure out exactly which part I want to blog about.

I’m working on my weekly encouragement emails, currently doing a series on Intentionality.  I find it very powerful and I hope those following along do as well. I’m doing a bible study on the Fruits of the Spirit as I prepare for the event and God continues to show me just how much He loves all of us and how He is calling us to bear His fruit. I”m also studying scriptures on the bible on being healthy.

For anyone that knows my story knows that I struggle with my weight. God has given me victory over many areas but things continue to pop up and it was brought to light again after the retreat.  I was sore for two days afterwards! I came to recognize that if I was going to go all in with hosting four events a year then I needed to prepare myself physically for the challenge.  I have come to realize that if I don’t take better care of myself then I will not be postured to do the work God has called me to do. It has been a tremendous eye opener.

Easter was extremely powerful at my church. (It always is) I was unable to attend the Good Friday service in person but I was able to watch it online.  As always, that weekend moves my heart to a humble stance as I focus fully on what Jesus took for my (our) sake.

In the middle of that God really opened my eyes to my health situation.  As I sang Reckless Love, singing the words “There’s no shadow you won’t light up, mountain you won’t climb up, coming after me… There’s no wall you won’t kick down, Lie you won’t tear down, coming after me” always brings to mind the way God has purposefully come after me. I look back at my past and I can see the many times He has kicked down walls to get me when I’ve asked Him to. So there I am on Friday, singing those words again, my heart bowed to Him, asking Him to come after me on this weight situation. Pouring my heart out to Him, sharing with Him that I want to be all that He has called me to be and I don’t want to put anything in His way and I need Him to tear it down. And it hit me that as much as I meant everything I said to Him, after the service was over, I went back to work and had cupcakes.

On Sunday I was flooded with the truth that if I kept asking God to come after me, yet didn’t change my actions, then He would most definitely come after me and it might not be a pleasant experience.  Back in 2007 something like this happened and I was in the hospital for two weeks.  Being there changed my life as God finally got my attention and no, I do not believe God put me in the hospital, I take full responsibility that it was my choices and actions that landed me there due to my health deteriorating but I knew that God used that circumstance to reach me and I have no doubt He would do the same again if that’s what it took to get me to where He wanted me to be.

How could He not. He loves me so much and here His child is begging Him to not let her stay this way. What loving Father would just sit back and not do anything?

So that is what I’ve been working on this week. Better eating choices and trying to move as much as possible.  Taking it one day at a time and trusting that as I move forward in truth, He will lead me into the light.

I would say that’s a pretty good recap of my week. Other than the grand baby being so cute I can barely stand it and finding out yesterday at my job that part of the group that was hired, me included, are getting a promotion and we’ve only been there 4 weeks.  Gotta love the mortgage industry, always changing!

For those of you that took the time to read my ramblings, I pray that you find encouragement in the fact that God is with us through all things. He is our strength and the only way we can get through our day with peace.

As I get ready to move into the busyness of the day, know that I will be praying that God shows up in a new and intimate way in your life today and that you will continue to grow closer to Him in all areas of your life.

Much love, Susan

What a Sunday!

Wow what a Sunday! Thank you Christ’s Church and Pastor Jason!
With just coming off of an emotionally charged Saturday, I thought I was prepared for what is always an amazing worship set and sermon. I even brought my make up bag because I expected my emotions to continue to overflow. However what I did not expect was to be shattered in such a complete way that I couldn’t even hold myself together during the first service.
God always uses songs to speak to me and it thrilled me to no end that the kick off was Glorious Day which is one of my most favorite songs ever and has been the kick off for every live event that I’ve been able to hold.
Then the song Yes and Amen. This song was so prevalent last year at the women’s retreat She Who Believes because I was beginning to cling to every single promise that God has given and I was reminded of the journey this past year that He has brought me through.
But God did not stop there and when I saw the lyrics for Never Let Go pop up on the screen I completely lost it. I was transported back in time to 2007 when I hit rock bottom.
While No Longer Slaves has been my theme song over the past several years, Never Let Go was the first song that helped me start fighting the fears that held me captive. As I walked my recovery journey out of Internet addiction and people pleasing and fear of every single thing around me and started to find freedom, God used that song to continually show me no matter how many times I let go of Him, He never ever let go of me! That lyric became my truth as I grew more in my relationship with Christ and walked more out of the darkness of who I was into who I was becoming.
And then the message. Oh that message.
My tremendous gratitude towards God and my Savior Jesus Christ for the never ending love that has been shown to me cannot be put in the words. The emotions that flowed out of my heart yesterday was all I had to give Him.

What a beautiful day it was, the support for Anne and her family overwhelmed my heart with joy even more and then the beautiful opportunity to pray with those going through a storm was icing on the cake.
I’ve said it before and I will say it 1000 times over. I love my church!

 

Thank you!

There is so much more to post about but until then I will just say that I am up early and experiencing such an overwhelming sense of awe and wonder at what took place just mere hours ago at the first ever Entrusted With The Truth Women’s Retreat.

I can’t stop the tears from flowing as I’m overtaken by what God did in the matter of hours. I remember so many different moments from yesterday and how God showed up and His Holy Spirit moved.  I am so humbled as I recall the stories that were being told as we gathered in circles and the experiences that people were sharing so openly.

I have to tell each of you that came out and supported this vision, from the bottom of my heart that I thank you for being a part of such a powerful day.  What happened yesterday couldn’t have taken place without you.

There are not enough words in the english language to tell each of you how much I love you, how much I appreciate you, and your support so I will keep it simple and just say thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Humbled and blessed beyond measure

Give God Everything!

As I sit down to type out my thoughts, I am overwhelmed with the truth of all the thoughts that want to flow from my fingertips. God has been and continues to show me every single day, hour, minute and moment that He can be trusted with EVERY SINGLE PART of my life.

There are so many examples I can give, leading up to this past week. Two of the biggest I can recall dealt with relationships and a job.

I was married and divorced within a year back in 1990. Many years later, in 2009 my ex-husband came back into my life. I was able to make amends and extend forgiveness for what went down years ago. It was a very healing time in my life. During that, as the communication was received favorably, I thought… no, I felt I KNEW that God was calling He and I back together again.  We dated again for six months with much talk about getting remarried. I was coming into a good place of healing and relationship with Jesus and I just remember continuing to thank God and ask Him to lead things this time around.  It wasn’t long before some of our previous issues arose and things became strained.  I remember the last phone conversation me and my ex-husband had was that we needed to talk in detail about what was going on. He assured me that we would, he told me that he loved me, that he wanted to be married to me again and would do whatever it took to make that happen and that he would be calling me that night to discuss.

It might not surprise you to know that I never heard from him again. Not once. Not ever. Let me be clear, I called him, I wrote him. I wrote his family, I did everything in my power to get him to respond and even today, in 2017, I have never heard another word from him.

Before you think the worst, he was alive and well and I saw through facebook several years ago that he had remarried to the woman that he was talking too during the time of our dating that caused the strain in the first place.

I share that to say that while it took me a while to get there, I came to a place where I had to accept that I had given my heart, my life, my choices over to the Lord and I came to understand that when circumstances all seem to be going where I want them to go, yet God comes back with a resounding NO, I just have to trust Him, even when I don’t understand it.  It wasn’t until 2013 and I met my husband of today that I could fully understand that God completely knew what was best for me and had the ABSOLUTE BEST waiting for me. Had I had my way, I would have missed out on what I have now with my husband and I wouldn’t trade that for anything!!

The other similar circumstance pertained to a job.  I was working at a decent job, making decent money but as a single mom had been praying for more. A new company opened up literally across the lake from where I was working and everyone was jumping ship. The buzz was all around how they were hiring anyone and everyone, with quite a decent pay raise. I watched as my coworkers left one by one, many of them not giving a two week notice as this company wanted them ASAP.  Eventually I put my application in and started praying.  I got an interview and it seemed to go well. Then I got the call that they wanted to offer me the job. I was thrilled! Here was my opportunity to provide more for my daughter! I didn’t want to put in my notice until it was finalized and I was told I would be receiving additional hire paperwork.  I waited. And waited. And waited some more. After about two weeks, I called and they assured me they were working on it. I kept getting communication from the ones who were already over there, talking about how great it was and how much money they were making. I continued to work and pray and wait. After another two weeks, I reached out again and this time I was apologized to. They said that in the end they were not able to hire the last round of interviewees and that they would keep my name on file and if something ever came up they would give me a call.

I was devastated. What had just happened? I kept asking God what He was doing.  But! I was able to recall the situation with my ex husband and I gave God thanks for whatever it was He was doing and continued at the job I had.

You know, God doesn’t have to give us a reason for anything He does. He is Sovereign and can say no anytime He wants. Just because He said so.

But He is a gracious loving Father and showed me about six months later why His way was better than mine.

The company that everyone thought was so great went right out of business. All the people that went over there were now without jobs and many were unable to return to the previous job due to the bridge they burnt when they left.

These two instances has stayed with me over the years that even when everything seems to be moving forward, that when all lights are green, if I ask and trust the Lord for His Will and Way, He will always do what is best for me.

Fast forward to today, this past few weeks. Our entire family had a situation in front of us where we felt God was leading us to go in a certain direction. My daughter and her father were going to be able to move into a seemingly nice area into a three bedroom trailer which would be plenty of room for them and the baby. Me, my husband and his mom were also going to move into the same area, our own three bedroom trailer, allowing us to cut our rent in half and take care of some much needed bills. There were so many things leading up to us considering that decision we felt it was truly God led but because of the lessons we have learned in our journey, we were all thanking God for what was in front of us but continually claiming that if something fell through at the last minute we knew it could only be the Wisdom of The Lord protecting us.

Needless to say, everything fell through in the last hour. In that moment, nothing made sense. How could all the signs be pointing forward, all the lights were green for go, yet the no still came.  My daughter and her father were heartbroken but because of me and my husbands own experience with things like this, I stressed to them that truly, when things like this happen, it can only be God’s Hand and while we may never know why, we can certainly trust it is what is best for all of us.

Again, God does not have to tell us why. His no is perfectly enough.

However, because of His grace, we were given the answer the next morning when a dear friend of mine texted me to share some news about the place that we were all going to move into.  It was not a safe neighborhood. It had been in the news many time and the reviews were agonizingly painful about how unsafe the place was. In that moment, I forwarded the text to my daughter and her father, encouraging them to never, ever, EVER doubt that when we give our lives, our hearts and our choices over to the care of God, He WILL do what is best for us.

Do you find this true in your life? Or maybe like me, before I grew into this trust I have for Him, I was afraid to give Him every decision. Oh, I might have given Him some of the decisions, but many times when it was something I really wanted or thought I deserved, I withheld asking Him for His hand. And even when I did ask, and received even the smallest no, I questioned Him over and over again as to why.

I am thankful for today, where I know without a doubt, that He holds the answer to every question or decision I am willing to put in front of Him. I pray that as you continue your journey in trust with Him that each time you will come closer to the absolute truth that His Way is ALWAYS better than our way, no matter what!

 

 

Don’t compare!

Recently I was writing for my weekly encouragement email and I said the following:

Over these past few months, I have met more women who have either organized or spoken at retreats or other events than ever before. I have been privileged to come into contact with women who are involved in other groups that glorify God and they have welcomed me with open arms. God is bringing women into my life in creative and interesting ways, like through random neighborhood apps, conversations in the women’s bathroom at church, or reconnecting me with a friend from years ago. **end**

While writing these words, I was overwhelmed with a feeling of gratitude that God is in control of such minute details of my life.  The abundance of His love is earth shattering to me! But it was of no surprise when the accusers voice whispered in my ear “yeah, but”

“Yeah, but what difference does that make?” “Yeah but, look at how successful she is” “Yeah but, do you really think you could accomplish that?” “Yeah but, look at how fit she looks” “Yeah but, this has already been done before” “Yeah but, Yeah but, Yeah but!”

Ladies, I just want to clear something up here and now. Satan IS A LIAR!

There is no reason to compare ourselves to anyone!

Satan tells us we are not good enough. That we won’t ever measure up. That we don’t deserve.  What a BUNCH OF CROCK!

Excuse my language but we have GOT to stop letting the deceiver have ANY say so over our life. We have GOT to stop him in his tracks with The Word of God. The Word that says we are fearfully and wonderfully made’ .. Psalm 139:14 and that we are chosen, holy and blameless before God.. ‘For he chose us in Christ before the foundation of the world that we may be holy and unblemished in his sight in love..Ephesians 1:4 and that we have been created for good works that God has prepared beforehand so we may do them.. Ephesians 2:10

We need to submerse ourselves in the truth so that the enemy cannot gain any type of foothold with his lies.  The devil knows he can never snatch us completely away from God but he will sure grab ahold of our ankle in a desperate attempt to keep us from getting to where God wants us to go!

I pray that those reading this will be encouraged to not be involved in the damaging comparison game and live the truth of who we are in Christ!